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Ignorance Is Your New Best Friend

I'm a bitch because I don't let you push me around. I'm a liar because I won't tell you everything. I'm insecure because i don't trust anyone but myself. I'm ugly because I wear make-up. I'm selfish because I don't live up to anyone's expectations but my own.

003

Sometimes it’s hard for me to see why anyone would want anything to do with me, & that makes it hard for me to open up. Especially to people I like & it makes me awkward.

02.

Jean Jacques Rousseau once wrote
"man is born free but everywhere he is bound in chains"
my sensitive natured chained me to what people thought of me and how society perceived me
my dignity chained me to doing whats best for others and not myself so that i felt like a good person
my integrity chained me to morals and always questioning right and wrong
my pride chained me to feelings of accomplishment
these are all the things that don’t matter
if you stripped away my life
take away the house i live in
the people i grew up with
the comfortable things that make life fun
my luxuries
my friends
my pride
my sensitivity and caring what other people
what are you left with?
your left with what truly matters
if you take away your favorite TV shows, your weekend plans with friends, what your parents think of you, what your friends think about you, what people think about you, you left with freedom
all that matters
if you take away everything
and look at my soul, just my soul, you’d see truth
its louder then words
and its greater then anything, indescribable..

"Man is born free, and everywhere he is in chains. One man thinks himself the master of others, but remains more of a slave than they."


all that matters, what truly matters, is what you love and how much you go for it, when you give up everything, your free to decide life for yourself..

I’m free..
theres different kinds of love
theres love of kinship, the unconditional love that makes you love your family no matter how horrible they are and no matter who they are, just because they’re family
theres love in camaraderie, the love you have for your friends and comrades, the love that lets you open your heart to the people around you and give yourself away to them selflessly, love amongst brothers and sisters and peers in life, whom you’d give yourself up for
then theres true love, the love you find and keep for one person you meet in your life, this love is stronger and more powerful then anything else, and with this love you can accept the passing and coming of your family and friends, because this one love is enough to sustain you.

people these days live chained very much, chained to pop culture and TV and what the "rules of life and love" are
chained to friends and what they think and how they feel
chained to the rules of society and whats they consider to be right or wrong.
chained to parents that you cant even think for yourself sometimes
so chained that it distorts perception
if you grew up by yourself with no one teaching you, no tradition or rules made you to follow, no expectations, you can just be yourself, and determine things yourself, and be who you are, and not have any interference with that, people don’t really have that anymore, and its sad...


a lot of people just want too to enjoy the shallowness of of life and experiences that come with it

it all doesn’t matter, what you have to focus on is life is short, all the famous geniuses
they all accomplish and feel the most when they’re young
cause you never know how long your gonna live
you have to take now to its fullest
right now, if i were to live long
is just moments that i would look back and smile at
but it could all be over tomorrow
and id be laying there thinking about all that truly matters.. and i know what truly matters

Each of us places his person and authority under the supreme direction of the general will, and the group receives each individual as an indivisible part of the whole...

What people dont realize is, that we’re all really the same..
I’m human
I’m the same as you
and everyone else
nothing more
humanity is plagued by perception and desires, greed and vanity
the wanting to have something more, to be something more, to accomplish more
there is nothing more
we’re all born the same to die all the same
as human beings
as equals
I’m the same as everyone else.

just open your eyes.

01.

Everything is more complicated than you think. You only see a tenth of what is true. There are a million little strings attached to every choice you make; you can destroy your life every time you choose. But maybe you won't know for twenty years. And you'll never ever trace it to its source. And you only get one chance to play it out. Just try and figure out your own divorce. And they say there is no fate, but there is: it's what you create. Even though the world goes on for eons and eons, you are here for a fraction of a fraction of a second. Most of your time is spent being dead or not yet born. But while alive, you wait in vain, wasting years, for a phone call or a letter or a look from someone or something to make it all right. And it never comes or it seems to but doesn't really. So you spend your time in vague regret or vaguer hope for something good to come along. Something to make you feel connected, to make you feel whole, to make you feel loved. And the truth is I'm so angry and the truth is I'm so fucking sad, and the truth is I've been so fucking hurt for so fucking long and for just as long have been pretending I'm OK, just to get along, just for, I don't know why, maybe because no one wants to hear about my misery, because they have their own, and their own is too overwhelming to allow them to listen to or care about mine. Well, fuck everybody. Amen.

The City Sleeps In Flames

I've been sick for the past three days. It really does suck. I hate the face that I feel like my head is in a bubble, and my migraines just won't go away. I should have those checked on, huh? Got a few things off my chest today with a certain someone. It actually felt good to just spill my guts. To just open myself and let EVERYTHING come pouring out. I needed that. Thanks for listening, Joshy.

I'm beginning to enjoy how things are working out. Practically everything seems back to normal. Though a few things will never be the same. I was never sure where I was going, but at the moment I don't really care. I don't mean that in a depressing sort of way. Its good. Trust me. I need a more positive outlook on life, and a few people have helped me along the way. Nothing else I can say to them, except thanks. and I'm sure they know who they are. Life can only get better. Especially after everything that I've been through. I tend to hold grudges, but that's how I am. I'm taking a new approach on life. I'm going to try and think more of what I want, then what other people want me to do. I'm always more worried about how they want me to be. I never think of myself. I just want everyone else to be happy. I don't expect me to happy.

"I am hiding from some beast
But the beast was always here
Watching without eyes
Because the beast is just my fear
That I am just nothing
Now its just what I've become
What am I waiting for
Its already done."